All I know is, I ended up not writing yesterday, and I knew I needed to. I even decided what I was going to write about, and ended up not getting around to it. I had to finish a few bracelet orders that I had hardcore procrastinated on, and I wasn't allowing myself to do anything else until they were completed.
I still have three bracelet orders that I need to work on, but for whatever reason, I'm not feeling called to that space right now. It's so strange. I love making bracelets, but I don't want to sit at my design table. I don't want to play with the beads, I don't want to come up with the right color combinations, or infuse the words with intention, energy, and soul.
I have been avoided my bracelet business since I had my craft show almost a month ago. As I'm sitting here writing this, I think that it's because I was seen by the public, people purchased bracelets. People I didn't know. The public.
It's almost like a vulnerability hangover, but much more subtle. It's almost like I'm at the same place I realized I was at with my writing two days ago. I'm in the space of "does this matter?" and "do I want to be seen?"
I also feel that it's time to reconnect with my business and feel into what it wants. Talking to and listening to her as an energetic being and how she wants to grow and move forward. Recently there was some negative energy directed towards my business from someone who had been present from the beginning, and I think that has something to do with hiatus. As if I'm in a hibernation of sorts, not so much licking my wounds, but simply resting and healing, so that as I move forward I can more clearly explore how my business wants to evolve.
I think I will share my businesses story tomorrow <3 div="">
Oh I love thinking of the business as an energetic being. How perfect! I hope you figure it out soon.
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I like how you circle around to deciding you're in a little bit of a hibernation...an interesting description. And I'll be on the lookout for your business story blog. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability.
ReplyDeleteSometimes we need space to rest in. Would love to hear about your business journey ❤️
ReplyDeleteThat's an interesting observation...that you may be wondering if you really want to be "seen." Now I'm gonna go ponder this for myself for awhile....
ReplyDeleteReconnecting with the Essence of your business is not an easy task. Find the joy in what you do, tackle what keeps you away from your design table.
ReplyDeleteIt happens to me more often than I'd like so I am wrapping you with a virtual hug <3
Sounds like you are doing the right thing for you and your business!
ReplyDeleteSome days, I "write" my blog post so many times during the day that I almost forget to really write it later.
I'm sorry someone did that to you about your business.
ReplyDeleteI feel ya on the "does this matter, do my words matter" with regard to my writing. I feel like that everytime I sit down to write, and even when I don't. I have to tell myself over and over, that if nothing else the words matter to me.