Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Tarot Tuesday

I believe that the different steps and journeys you take in life are connected. My journey of connecting with myself and BIG are so deeply intertwined, and I keep catching glimpses as I turn my head. I don't believe that it is as simple as I ended an unfulfilling relationship with an employer and a week later signed up for an e-course that happens to be helping push me into my awareness. Partly it is, but NO, it is so much more than that. All these experiences that I have gone through this year have all been about one thing: embracing myself. But more on that later.

Tonight I took a big step towards being seen (which is a huge aspect of BIG). I went to my first class meet-up of Intro to Tarot: The Fool's Quest. This is the first time that I have taken an actual class, outside of an academic environment, pertaining to one of my interests. It was so refreshing to be in an intimate setting with other like-minded individuals who are all drawn to the same place because they are meant to connect.

This is going to be a 6-week exploration of the Tarot. The history, the cards, meanings, their archetypes, the symbology. It is also a personal adventure into trusting my intuition to speak to me, to guide me. I love that we close the classes with reading exchanges among students.

For the next 6 weeks I am going to do something fun here. Out of the cards that I learn about each week, I am going to let a card choose me. I will introduce the card, and share my feelings and interpretations about the card.

The Magician
Landing in the world of form, he is surrounded by the elements that make it

I am very intrigued that the Magician picked me for a second time this evening. This is the card that I pulled for our student exchanges this evening.

The Magician is the second stage of the Fool's Quest. This card means learning to master the elements, or learning to work with what is around you. It relates to the discovery and curiosity of new talents, or talents that you already have but are not aware of completely. The realization of potential is there, but full potential is being blocked. Choices must be made, actions taken to tap into your full potential. The magician represents a journey of awareness of consciousness.

He stands with one hand pointed towards the heavens and the other pointed towards the earth. The lemniscate above his head represents infinity. His serpent cincture (snake devouring his own tail) represents eternity. This could also represent karmic message what goes around, comes around. The magician embodies the lessons of "As above, so below" and "As within, so without".

In my own experiences I feel that The Magician is telling me that I am taking the right steps in my journey. I am learning about myself and I am growing into my awareness. He is also reminding me to be open to the lessons that are being presented. Not to rush into these situations or experiences, but to take it slow, and soak up all the knowledge and wisdom that I can. To trust that my intuition will take care of me, that she will continue to guide me on the correct path.

The Magician asks you: Where are you focusing your energy?

Monday, September 6, 2010

Monday Sunday Make Up

Here is my first step into the big unknown. These are some, but not all, of the exercises that i have worked on this past week for BIG. I am learning to let go of my control and enjoy the flow of the process. I am also learning to be seen, to witness. I am starting on the journey towards believing in myself once again.

Mish Mosh

Today is a freakin' great AWESOME day! Why you ask? Be warned, this post is going to run wild with exclamation points :)

I WON, I WON, I WON!!! I totally just found out that I won this beautiful, juicy art journal from Robyn's Art on Etsy in Connie's September Sweetness giveaway! OHZ MY GOODNESS!! I am jumping for joy!! I love everything about her-the color, the tree, her clasp, EVERYTHING!! She is rightly named 'Grow', which is totally appropriate for the transition in awareness and perception that i am experiencing right now!

Connie is the beautiful spirit caretaker of Dirty Footprints Studio, and she is also my lovely tribe leader over at BIG. It is safe to say that I freakin' love her to pieces! She is amazing, go check her out! ♥ ♥ ♥

I also realized today that I have 2, count 'em...2 followers here!! That is awesomely awesome!! I love you ladies so, so, so much! Thanks for rockin out on the love vibe here!

There is some lovely updates to this love filled space. I added a list of all the lovely ladies that I follow throughout the internets, most of them are the fiercely, amazing, creative souls that I call my tribe! Check them out, and show them some love!

I realized today that I have missed the past two weeks of Sunday photos. My bad!! I've been so wrapped up in creative juicy exploration over at BIG, soaking in the adventures that await me during the week, that i have neglected my Sundays. Well, no more! I am going to post here a little bit later some of the paintings that I worked on last week to catch up!

Oooh, I almost forgot! Starting this week, there will be some more weekly posts added here. It's a secret though, you'll just have to wait!!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Extreme Night Owl

Arian laying in bed with me today. This is his "why must you constantly take pictures of me?" look.

I am going to be either 1.) super cranky or 2.) super tired tomorrow/today. It is 5:44 AM here and I still have not gone to bed. This is the result of my body rebelling against the heat wave today and being sluggish and tired. I did not get out of bed all day. I read, snuggled with Arian, slept. I was trying to restore my energy because I felt so disconnected and weighed down. Now because of my "bed day" I have been up all night with energy, and I am just now starting to feel the calls of sleep.

Oh, help them all tomorrow. Everyone I come in contact with. Tomorrow/today will be a test of my will and strength. Starting tomorrow, I am determined to get my normal sleep schedule back.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Trying something new here. If this works, ill be able to do mini updates of L.H.S from my phone! Wish me luck!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Curiouser & Curiouser

This is the journal that I will be writing in over the next 6 weeks while I participate in BIG. It is a lovely composition book that I picked up at Wal-mart. I love it. I also love my Signo gel pens that I'm using to write with. Color always makes writing more fun. I know that I have still yet to make a post about BIG. In time the words will come, i am sure. Now I get to go play and set up my painting space in the dining room! Of course I will post pictures!

New design

I had all intentions to write about BIG, my excitement, my fear, and how they are all related...but I got to caught up in redecorating the place. The energy here is much better now, don't ya think? I feel it's more authentic, more personable. As for that post...there is always tomorrow!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Catching up

On Sunday Mark introduced me to this beautiful trail not far from our apartment. It was beautiful, serene, quiet, inviting. We didn't walk very far on the trail since it was dusk, and I do plan on going back for longer walks.

I recently realized that the camera on my phone has a panoramic feature, and i was playing around with taking pictures while on our walk.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Sunday Photos~5 things i love about the Chinese Buffet

the oolong tea is so warm, relaxing and grounding.

As much as i've tried, i still haven't mastered chop sticks!

the chinese zodiac placemat never changes, and it never ceases to prompt entertaining conversation

a chandelier and neon lighting in a dining room area. Need I say more?

Best. Part. Of. The. Meal.

My fortune: Your mind is orignial, creative and alert. How freakin' awesome is that?!

Friday, August 20, 2010


The resistance phase. That is where I am sitting currently with the August break. Similar to my journey through Bikram, it happens around the half-way point of the first 30 days. Where the excitement starts to wear thin, and is replaced by a slight weighed down feeling of "demands" and "must do's". But it shall not be like that, this time. There are no rules to follow here, just the feeling of being present and enough. I came into the August break with the intention of trying to post everyday with the desired result being more present on my blog, more active. I knew coming in that I would hit this "rough patch", but without the "rules" it has been easier. By being fully present and aware of my resistance, in sitting with it and nurturing it, by allowing it to ebb and flow naturally, I AM being true to myself and growing within my spirit. I am being more active not only here in this space, but in my life as well.

Over the past few days I have slowly come to an idea about this transition that i am currently in. I feel that this time period is going to be one of personal growth and realization. An adventure into uncharted spiritual territory. I'm slowly opening myself up to my intuition and spirit. I'm getting called into a new direction, one that i've briefly glimpsed before but never really explored. I've even started to see it in my painting and journaling. The colors and images I have been using are all symbolic of where I am in my journey.

The pictures above are of a place where I go that is a place of understanding, acceptance and guidance. A part of my journey that has been missing for about a year now. I spent some time there last night, and it was affirming, as if I had never left.

Let's close this out with a flower!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Happy Birthday to ME!!!*

I didn't take any pictures yesterday, i was too busy getting down & dirty with my creative side. It was so much fun getting my hands messy with acrylic paints while starting my adventure into art journaling. There were a few emotionally intense moments when my overwhelming perfectionist inner critic reared her head, but it was out of fear and I accepted that. It was so much fun to let go and not expect the finished product to be exceptional.

Today is my 26th birthday, and this is the first birthday that i can remember that i have had a tiara! Last night we celebrated with sparklers outside the apartment. The pictures are bad quality, but my excitement more then made up for it. This morning I awoke to the living room filled with balloons of all colors and sizes, and Arian guarding my tiara. Or he could have been waiting his turn to wear it!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Friday, August 13, 2010

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Do Not Stand On

2 irrational fears:
1-sidewalk grates/doors of any kind-i fear that i as i am walking on them, they will collapse and i will fall. i know this is highly unlikely, but they still scare the bejeebees out of me.
2-swimming pool drains-only in the deep end of the pool. scary, scary stuff. i can't swim over them-freaks me out every time. i can't even remember when i first realized this fear, maybe its been present since i first learned how to swim.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

I am loved*

" Dwell in love and know that you are loved. Dwell in light and know that you shall be a light, and in that knowing, surrender.”

today i finally chose to face a challenge that i have been avoiding for the past month. on my way, i was presented with these gifts reminding me that i am loved. they were gentle confirmations to me that i need to do what is right for my heart and soul.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Day 10

these are pictures from april (may?) when we visited mark's sister at children's hospital. i didn't take any new pictures today (there are no rules!) because i've been miserable all day long. first, there is the sty in my eye that makes it superbly uncomfortable to blink. when i'm at home, i've been laying around putting warm compresses on it (that's a lot of fun!). then there is this awful heat. i try to accept it and work through my resistance to it, but my body does not like it. i get tired and cranky, i feel extremely uncomfortable in my skin. maybe this is my body and spirits way of tuning me into the idea that i need to move to a much cooler climate. a place that isn't stifling hot during the summer. i would love a cool breeze from a mountain or a lake, even the ocean. someplace green and calm and peaceful.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Sunday Photos~trees

trees, trees, glorious trees. they are all around, but i don't always notice them. i take them for granted, how they are always producing oxygen, cleaning the air, providing shade. i never give them enough thanks for their hard work. so today i say....

thank you to all trees for being!